It's so crazy to think that I've been here in Mexico for a month already and only have one month left. I already know that once I get home I'm going to miss being here. Over this last month the Lord has shown me so much and I know there's so much more that He wants to show me. And of course as I sit here to write about my experiences so far, it's difficult to narrow it all down. The reality is no matter how much I write there's not enough words to express everything.
When I first got here I was excited to go out and do the everyday missionary stuff, you know like go and do outreaches everyday. We do have outreaches, but that isn't all there is to missionary work. Being a missionary really isn't any different than being at home. Well I mean it is but let me explain this more. Just like at home theres housekeeping to do, actually I never did any of that at home but now I do ( I hope my parents aren't reading this). Being a missionary is just being a Christian in a foreign land. There's days that are ministry-filled and then there are off days. There are days where we go to church and days that we sit in class learning more about the missions field. Everyday isn't filled with evangelizing but it is filled with serving God.
The fact that I don't speak Spanish is definitely a challenge. But people don't care if you speak their language. Sometimes all someone needs is a smile or a hug. And when it comes to kids they're just happy to have a new friend to play with. Above all of that, God's love is universal.
Over this first month we've really focused on what it means to be a servant of God. It's really convicted me and made me realize how lucky I am to be chosen as a servant. It's so easy to think like "I'm just cleaning the bathroom, this isn't serving God," but that's so wrong, everything we do should be an act of service to Him.
We've been going through a book called "On Being a Servant of God." And this book really illustrates how we are to serve and what I have learned is that we're not always able to fix peoples problems, but we can guide them to Christ who can. And for me that was sort of a wakeup call because I know I am so controlling and strategic so when people come to me with certain situations I like to give them my plan and try to fix the situation for them. But really I need to point them to Christ.
I've also realized the how important it is to start your day in prayer and in the word. It's so easy to get caught up in serving God that you can easily neglect the relationship, I know it sounds strange but it's so true. Recently in my personal devotional time I was reminded that God should be our number one ministry and I have really been trying to remind myself of that daily.
The more I am out here I realize that this is my calling. I mean I guess I have kind of always known that but I've always tried to deny it. Looking back on this past school year and seeing the internships that I didn't get makes me realize that God was closing those doors because He wanted me to be where I now am. At the time, of course I was disappointed but in this moment I am so grateful and I can honestly say that I don't regret spending my summer here.
Yes, there are moments when I miss my best friends but they know that I am doing what the Lord has called me to do. And in the grand scheme of life, two months is really nothing. On the plus side the Lord has brought new friends into my life that I would've never met had I not came.
In just a month I will be entering my senior year of college and I know that after I graduate I will be serving on the missionary field. Some might think "What a waste of an education," but it's been my prayer to be able to use what I learn in school to glorify God. And already I have been able to do so. It's honestly been such a blessing to me to be able to do that.
I honestly don't know exactly where I'll be this time next year but I am excited to see where God takes me. Until then I will just continue seeking Him and enjoying every moment.
If you made it this far I love you so much, bless your heart!!!